2013

We have officially embarked on a new year!!!
However I failed to make any resolutions. Not to say I think everything is perfect in my life but I am pretty freakin happy.
I am in love with and married to an amazing person who is also my best friend.
I am a step-Mom to an amazing young man.
I have four delicious furry children of which I absolutely adore.
I have an amazing family (blood,chosen and by marriage)
I have an awesome network of loving friends.
I have an undetectable viral load for HIV.
I have 1200 T-cells.
No obvious serious side effects with my current HIV treatment.
Don’t smoke.
Don’t use.
Don’t drink.
Not overweight.
I am employed.
Love my jobs!
Love my Boss!
Love my clients!
Having said all of the above….these are the things that I needed resolve with in the past. Not to say any one of them could take a turn on any given day, but today it’s all good. Hello 2013 bring me what you have to offer!
Love Rebekka

December 10th, 2012

I am sitting here at my desk in the studio where I work during the day as a production coordinator. Obviously not coordinating much, other than my thoughts for the day.
So here goes…
I am not a religious woman. So this whole Christmas and Holiday season means little to me in the realm of church and God.
Don’t get me wrong, I have the utmost respect for people who follow a path of their own choosing. And if my mother were to ask me to go to midnight mass with her on Christmas eve, I would happily go and enjoy every minute being with her. Watching her glow while her feet barely touch the floor as she embraced the warmth of God.
Many times throughout the year I think about the children that go to bed hungry and wake up with even emptier bellies. Those who are sick and cannot get treatment. The unemployed who are desperate for work. And naturally I am especially aware of this during the holiday’s.
Some may call me a hippie peace freak liberal and I am totally okay with that label.
I am a vegetarian who does yoga, meditates and loves to chant.
Some may call me a Buddhist or a Hare Krishna and I am totally okay with those label’s as well.
I believe that the energy I put out into this world is the the energy that will be returned.
I know that if I give everything I’ve got, with good intentions, to the task at hand then I cannot fail.
I understand that if I love without expectations and unconditionally then I will know what it is to love myself. Because if I do not love myself I cannot love you.
I believe in letting go…
And figuring out when to “get out of my own way” before my ass is falling off has been very beneficial in my later years.
Giving at this time of year seems to come much easier than any other time. And that is my favorite part of the holidays. Giving my time, good energy, love and maybe a small gift. Spending time with my loved ones and my fury four legged children. Baking cakes, pies and cookies. Creating yummy feasts to share.
For me, Christmas is a time I am reminded of the remarkable life I have been given, and the life that I choose to live. How grateful I am for my family, friends, health and sobriety. I am also aware of the fact that we learn very little from being happy all the time. It is the pain that we experience in those very difficult times that teach us many invaluable lessons. Everything that I have been through thus far in my life has prepared me for today. And today I may learn something that will help me tomorrow.
Whatever your beliefs or how you choose to celebrate, may your winter solstice
be full of love!
Ps. Don’t forget to leave carrots out for the reindeer.
Love,
Rebekka